Archive for October, 2007

I will stop fantasizing..

Wednesday, October 17th, 2007

Hail to myself! I got what I want and I got what I dreamed of. On the contrary, I have to end this folly.

The jaunt I have had was comparable to a piece of heaven. I felt the pleasure that I am dreaming of. I can’t believe I walked with fantasy. Every step I made was etched not in my heart but in my mind.

Yet, it was a perilous journey. It was fatiguing and my feet ached. I backed of. That’s the most I can do because any wrong move of my feet can lead me into the cliffside.

I was wrong when I said that I’m ready to face perils,and I was so wrong when I thought that this fantasizing will not faze me. Honestly, I can’t bear with these combination of circustances because I have this obscure feeling inside me.

I just woke up from my deep slumber and I have to put my dreams into oblivion.

Now, I believe that fantasy can be reality.

I hate immature guys-they are the pain in my ass

Wednesday, October 3rd, 2007

Immature guys are very hard to deal with. It seems like they can’t understand the things that are happening around them. Being with them is like baby sitting a hundred babies. They are self-centered, and very insensitive. They only think about their damn-selves. Those bastards do things without even thinking about the pros and cons of the situation. They don’t care if it will affect them or worse, if it will affect the people around them. As long as they believe it is right, it is good for them, and they will benifit from it, they will absolutely go for it. Take note, with no second thoughts or hesitations. For them, things they want need immediate gratification. They will risk themselves just to satisfy their urges. Immature guys fall under the "pleasure principle", wherein pleasure of the flesh matters most than anything else in this world. Moreover, their minds can’t afford to think that their attempts to gratify their urges might get them or even the person they are with into serious trouble, (like what I’m experiencing right now).

I really can’t believe why I am still having a relationship with an immature guy. His recent acts disappointed me. I hate him for doing that and I can’t accept it. I thought circumstances will make him change but I was wrong. He’s still the same old guy. He’s giving me a hard time and now I must confess that our relationship has gone vividly stressful, especially for me. And now I’m like thinking of having a relationship with a mature guy. I just want to know the feeling and I just want to know how the relationship will work for the two of us,if ever it will happen.

As of now, I’m in need of understanding from all the people around me, especially my friends-the people who know me. I must say this because this is what I truly feel.

Can Fantasy be reality???

Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007

I’ll keep on fantasizing, after all these vague feelings and illusions exists only in my mind. This will not faze me because this is definitely not a fraudulent act. I’m certain. In my monotonous situation, I just found myself thinking this kind of stuff. You can’t blame me because you are not in my condition. I also can’t blame myself for this. I know what I’m doing and I know my limitations.

I love being a fantast, but I’m not delirious. This is only plain admiration… It’s a dream, and he is like a dream. He is my fantasy, and the little boy on the roller coaster ride, he is my reality…